pushing

there is not enough time in a day to do all that can be done and lately, a year or more in fact, there has not been enough time in a day to give myself the time for myself that i want... and now i come to the point of asking where does want end and need begin...

i am pushing to get what i want... do i subconsciously push still more to get what i need... is that the difference and is that where it can become confused or even self-destructive... if i am asking, where are the question marks?...

the distraction of rules is the human crutch i laugh at so as not to face how much i detest it so as not to break too many and lose my freedom to choose... but pushing, that is when lines can be crossed and even inadvertently, irrepairable damage can be done...

not including spelling errors or typos, narf...