mmmmm madness

while that is certaintly easily and accurately read as mmmmmm, as in yummy, the more mad reading would follow the previous entry of staccato letter p's that rather might sound like a moterboat or some sort of puttering stuttering shock-value title and enphasizes the word following the staccato letter, kind of like m-m-m-m-m, no, actually, even more like m.m.m.m.m., hmmmm, to be most even more precise, muh muh muh muh muh madness!...

yes, that's more like it...

in other words, after a bit of sleep, back out to the fucking holiday season for more sugar and caffeine and death-march cuz there's cake and sugary drinks and killer food everywhere and i seem to be socializing more than ever this year with an almost complete lack of any good sense or reservation about indulging as much as humanly possible and i am not even wondering if it is because i am feeling sorry for myself or hoping someone sees through the human sickness of sloth and whatever decadent hedonism this is (literally) to actively care and 'save me' or some such crap cuz i don't give a flying fuck about anything beyond the momentary gratification of the party in my head fueled by the sugar/caffeine chemical hormonal rush...

or maybe i'm just mocking the season of joy and happiness cuz i'm lonely and nobody really cares enough to be here to hug me and hold me long through the silent night, holy my ass, aye?...

could be it's just another odd entry for the hell of the shock value, or bullsugar, even, but then, whatever, it started as an e-the-real entry and ended up here, for whatever that might be worth to you or posterity... i shall be done, eventually, and that's no bullsugar, nyuk, nyuk, narf...

ho ho ho