time to discover

it takes time to discover and life leaves most of us so little time to do anything but work and shop and eat and sleep (and do a few bodily functions in between)... but still, make time to discover...

even if it's bullsugar!

flying time

before i can catch my breath there's another day and another night and another week and another month and blink, life passed and not even right before my eyes cuz my eyes were blurry with fatigue and distracted by so many other bullsugar and whatevers...

wish you were here :}

could have fallen

asleep, that is... there was a time when i could have fallen in love at the drop of a hat, or any article of clothing, in fact, or a blink of the eye, to be more exact, from afar, up close, at first sight, in reality, in fantasy, even purely in my imagination, but that does not happen much anymore... so i stayed awake anyway...

and whatever will be will be :)

fourty four blogs here at blogspot (though not all listed on my profile and a few shared)... thirty diaries at diaryland (though only about thirteen actually developed with theme and entries and all of those mostly sleeping these days)... and a few journals at live journal have long slept as well... and other elsewhere, some of which can be found here... why?... i am mentioning it because i want attention and feeback... i do it because releasing myself, real and imaginary, into words is cathartic...

also... so much bullsugar... and then some...

missing the point?

for visual and egocentric reasons i am sure (figure of speech, even), i am slightly addicted to my current entry in my video me blog cuz it's fun and i miss fun so very much... and the physical, i miss the physical... and life, i miss life... love, of course i miss precious love most of all... i'd like a profound thunderstorm about now... i miss nature too... i work too much...

bullsugar!

yeah, what (must be again)

somewhere along the way yeah, what? with and without the question marks must have been the title of a blog (or journal or diary entry) and if the many thousands of entries were catalogued, we'd know, wouldn't we?... so?... yeah, right (ditto)...

meanwhile, this blog called bullsugar may have lost it's way (or it's energy) as it drifts through a slow semi-silent phase (obviously influenced by the lack of time {and energy} for letting the mind go where it will go {not fixing the holes, aye?} as works swallows all it can)...

still, there is the faint breath of irreverence... somewhere...

or a blue-green sneeze from the left, at least :)

minor wonders

i wonder what this blog was going to be about before it became whatever it is about, if anything... i wonder if i would like the american idol singers if i heard them for the first time today instead of having followed them for weeks and grown slightly attached to the whole singer success dream.. i wonder why nobody tells me they read my words if anybody ever does read my words... i wonder why human being let fear destroy life's potential... i wonder if anybody knows what bullsugar means...

may i?

more rested than in many many months and yet, still quite groggy, only demonstrating the need for an extended sleep (vacation) type event and since that has not occurred with any comfort since the mid-nineties, it would seem to be about time (it's always about time)... so commit?... this year, for sure... this season, most likely... this month, perhaps, but may may make matters more manageable for manipulating time, maybe... merry merry, no doubt :)

orgasms were never like this

reading gogreen who?... laci?) tonight and lead to tinybuddha (as opposed to skinny buddha or the original fat guy, i suppose)... perhaps profound (craigyferg?) and what (the fuk?) or maybe love is all we need, but i haven't even gotten started yet, really (following idol after all) and brain exploding through the right eye and left ear, it was bound to happen...

bullsugar!

exhausterated

headache in right eye most of the day, ear screaming at feverish pitch, hit like crap tonight, but pitched great, still lost 8-7 cuz of errors and crappy hitting by the rest of the team... headache in right eye and ear screaming did not help... at all... keeping me awake?... life... liberty... and the pursuit... and...

bullsugar! :)

when i'm sixty four

i wonder if i will still be here... alive, even...

bullsugar!

not enough energy

bullsugar requires 17.13 joules of energy to not be crap and there has not been quite that much lately... so this is crap... crap bullsugar... deal with it...

narf...

rhestoric

miles to go before i sleep, still have promises to keep...

believe...

over under

future bullsugar forcasts sex is not overrated, just undernourished...

bullsugar!