too much is not enough

cuz if it's too much, there is not enough reception for the energy being generations, the giver is left with excess and lonely for more sharing, but only the one with too much sees this perspective... so i am home from two all night parties to change and head out for softball practice...

make your weekends precious too, for they are too few in the end :)

always asking for too much

bullsugar!

soured on the cold

yeah, i moved down to florida for the tropical heat and it's been cold for months and that's just wrong... it's got me hibernating inside in some really physical ways and it's been going on for way too long and that's just wrong...

repetitive too...

the office

i suppose i need to be in the mood for it, but i am finding it below boring on the entertainment scale, but this could just be a really bad episode and it is the first time i am watching an episode... is it always done as a documentary with the characters introducing themselves to the camera and each other and telling the camera about each other and saying and doing stupid (below funny) things?... maybe you can tell me what i am missing...

ok, i looked it up, it is a mockumentary, mocking documentaries and whatever else might be funny to the writers, i suppose... i have no clue how this show became or remains popular, but it seems to be very popular... maybe this is just a really poor episode (apparently it is possible, even among fans i see... apparently the guy at the bottom of this page {comment 119) thought there were 11 episodes worse than this one and he's one of the most frequent posters on the site... yes, i did research) and i am not giving it a fair chance...

but for me, the characters are unappealing, so how much more can good writing do?... it's kind of a prolonged monty python bit without the any of the cleverness, odd faces, slapstick, or intelligent humor... just a sleepy barely irreverent series non-sequitors deadpanned for thermian humor value...

yeah, go for that reference and you in a giggle... but seriously, the office?... no seriously, the office... why?...

you never know what you're gonna get from bullsugar!

twelve hours sleep, yay

well, almost yay... it was not straight through though, as i woke at least a half dozen, probably more times... twice to go to the bathroom cuz i drink lots of water and often before going to bed and do not believe in holding it in cuz i fall back to sleep easily and at least four or more times to roll over cuz i was sleeping on my side and i feel the discomfort of that awkward body position (human bodies are not built to sleep in their side)... when did i stop automatically sleeping on my back?... toronto, yeah, and why have i not addressed it?... i do not recall sleeping straight through for twelve or more hours in this millenia...

alas, bullsugar!

video fever

that's right, in case you found this place and haven't noticed, at least a half dozen videos popped into the random pop news blog from the serious to the nonsense from banal satire to serious social issues, the world outside the head came a knocking as i found time to wander around my emails and youtube and other newsy places...

posterity will have a lot of catching up to do... how about you? :)

bsugar

as opposed to asugar?... pour some sugar on me?... i'd only say that to someone who i'd want to lick it off, not anybody else no matter how much someone might want to lick it off, i am that proprietary with this body these days and kind of almost always have been... not prude, just picky...

i know, you really wanted to know that :)

go cicero

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yeah, you go cicero :)

wow, forgot already

that i bought dvds the other day, or yesterday, even, but not last night, no, it was the night before, so like, whatever, or whutevahhhh, yeah, like chinch...

but remember this... ask yourself nothing else but everything :)

bought dvds

impulse purchasing at amazon dot com and a whole slew of cds will be arriving in a week or two, days of marathon watching could be in store... i wonder if jackson is into that kind of thing... sooner or later i will get a giant tv too... looking at the 52 to 65 inch models... only thing is, this space is too small for such a huge screen... but then, i don't want to spend $700 on a 42 inch screen when for just a few hundred more i could get a 52 or 55 or even a 65 inch screen... oh, the laborous pondering... maybe i could get an imax...

narf :)

paper trails

holy crap, talk about a paper trail… I just changed my address for my driver’s license and car registration online and while I was there I renewed my regiatration which is due in less than two months and it was simple and easy (and expensive, $115 to renew the car for two years and $25 just to get a duplicate license cuz of the address change)… but the amazing holy crap thing was finding an expired registration on my 1991 nissan sentra still in the system and still renewable…

according to the state of florida, I still own that car that I have not even seen in thirteen years… and actually, it’ll be an antique in just six more years… probably would still be running if I had it all this time, though it did get banged up a bit along the way… dang narrow tree-lanes… the irony (or scary thing) is that the plate is still good and I am libel for any tickets on the plate and if I wanted to transfer the plate I could and that would save $225 in new plate fees if I got another car…

anyway, into each day a little bullsugar falls, or something like that…

no more anonymous here either

at least not straight through... so far i've been pushed to set three blogs here at blogger google on moderate all, not just moderate older entry comments... the anonymous spam is getting out of hand so anonymous comments are shut down...

bullsugar!

all the caring words

i miss them, even in my most irreverently casual independently secure happy within myself moments... so just in case you found me here, now you know :)

no matter how well i carry on
i miss you when you're gone :)

another fun night

maybe that's why i am alone when i get home, cuz i have too much fun and i am so excited by so many diverse and everyday things all the time so there's no magical wondrous explosion of sudden fun or excitement that someone can personalize and thing they inspired that can be considered falling in love...

anybody get that?...

well anyway, and as usual, and by the way, and whatever, and yeah, so... somebody somewhere will find me on my wavelength or cloud or plan of consciousness or literary description of wherever i can be found and related to and understood and gotten (get it now?) and until then, life will just continue to be fun and exciting without you...

you'll know me when you find me cuz i've always been in your dreams (and you've always been in mine) and everything else is just...

bullsugar :)

lonelies

feeling the missing pieces of the puzzle of my dreams cuz the picture of my dreams (not that anyone could paint if, ah, only if someone could be the portrait of my love dontcha know :)

where were we?... ah yes, lamenting the missing pieces, specifically, the missing piece traditionally called the one (and i was using the term long before the elton john song of the same name, but the song did so well fit after all, all i've ever needed cha know :)

we were going somewhere, really... ah yes, somewhere, somehow, somewhere... romantic tragedies so easily float around in my head when the lonies rise from the depths of desires for love and companionship and partnership and romance and falling... the hunger to fall in love used to be much stronger than it is in recent years, but it still exists somewhere withint the busy whirlwind of the life i still loosely call mine...

wonderful :)

movies

i love movies, even more when i bond with someone because of how we love movies, especially specific movies... there are movies that are most dear to me because of the specific people who loved those movies with me... some like it hot is one... et is another... as is it's a wonderful life... my girl as well... home alone too... and harry potter and many 90's disney movies... sharing the movie experience is much more profound for me in the long run...

there are movies that draw me in even deeply no matter what and that is often due to the character (as written or as acted, sometimes libido is enough to draw me in, most times there's a much deeper psychological connection) as much as the story... v is one... hook, tale of two cities, random harvest, terminator 2 and serenity are others...

avatar did not quite win me over completely, but i do want to see it again in a full imax as i saw it opening night in a part-imax... the reason for this movie reflection entry is that i see this week avatar passed titanic as the biggest money maker ever in the u.s.a and worldwide..... the first film to make $2 billion... . and it made it in amazingly faster time (titanic took about 250 days to reach $600 million in the u.s. and avatar made $601 million in it's first 48 days... amazingly fast... quite amazing, really)...

anyway, it is partly due to inflation, but at the pace it is going avatar could reach the top ten of the inflation-adjusted lists too, thought #1 would be tough... does that make it the best movie all time?... not for me, though i definitely enjoyed it and will see it again... but the best movies for me are the ones with personal connections because they were shared with someone precious to me or because they become part of my psyche... and that's the impromptu movie wrap up in my head for tonight...

bullsugar :)

what'dya miss?

oh surely you have not read every entry everywhere and even if you think you did, spent weeks or longer tracking down every entry i wrote, look again and you'll find some entries have slipped in between the ones you found when you were reading somewhere else... yes, that's right, write too... i write even more than you see and the overflow spills into the past as if they were already there... and if should come as no surprise cuz i've told you all this before...

you didn't know?...

must have missed that entry too :)

so full of it

yeah, yes, uh-huh, i am so full of bullsugar it is ridiculous (ridiculouso, even) and you are so sure i am not when i am and so sure that i am when i am not, you find it so much easier to simple not care either way...

from whining about how people use and abuse my generosity and kindness to bitching about how unappreciated and unnoticed I am to how independently serene and without need I am to how irreverently serious my serious irreverence might be for sure and is…

like the reign of toyoto is over…

but if you truly understood, you’d know the truth and then, all this would not matter… most humans seem to see enlightenment as some sort of amazing accomplishment… I wonder what they think they find there…

in moments like these

that shall not be described or explained except to say, a true friendly voice and ear would be right on time...

and all that comes it bullsugar :}

high protein

is a farce cuzz, after all, who can get high on protein?... then again, who am i to question the human body?... it can get high on anything, especially the brain, which is often high on things we'd never expect to effect it's affect... i mean, barbecue sauce could be blood to a vampire, texture, the rush of energy, the coagulation factor... and blood is high in protein, after all... maybe...

i'm thinking about changing my diet again...

a phenomenal lack of sleep

can a lack be phenomenal, come to think of it, or inquiry, for that matter, but be that as it may or may not be or not to be, the fact is sleep seldom comes to the mind these days due primarily to the phenomenal lack of time there’s that inquiry again, for what it’s worth)… so much to do at home, at work, inside, outside, and so little time… phenomenal, actually…